i am gonna make a change for once in my life

Oh Goodness


hello pals greetings on a saturday night to all....


ohmygawl i just woke up from my couch when i am suppose to persevere through the night without watching the teevee and of course NOT to sleep. But apparently ya not doing so well.


you couldn't believe i have shit loads of work to do when the block is officially over. goodness how am i going to finish all thezeee within 2 fucking days oh no not, 1 and a half day? I have a solution in mind thou like delay my submission thats the only way out. whatever i am going to choing right now. goodbye buddies


oh but damn theres a distraction right there a rather important messenger conversation.
i am off now

work it

Oh where do i start? It has been a while that I've decided to place my ass down on the chair and write about my life well if you wanna know- its disastrous!


What a dreadful and blood sucking week i had. I am still in the midst of recovering, having said that, i am gonna anticipate a bloody hectic and the oh-my-fuck-god-i-am-gonna-be-dead-meat week ahead! I need rescue.


Sigh really i have to construct garments, this is what i am here for- to construct garments. To make the impossible possible. I am in a plunge of despair whenever i realized i need to start on something. But all i can do is to let agitation fermenting inside me and helplessly sit and figure things out. Yea sit and look at my classmates with admiration and wonder why can't i be like them. Why can't i have more talent in making clothes and why can't i be less reckless, patient, neat and tidy? I can't seem to work it out seriously, it really challenged me this time. I have to tone down in total defeat and tell myself i am such a loser- a stupid loser. Now, i need to know what to do next, whats the next step but what if i can't even answer myself?


Well i feel so lousy these days i can't seem to do well in this, not that i am hard to myself but seriously i can't understand a tad bit of the construction. I need alot of experimenting but damn i've got no time. Time is an issue, producing it is an issue, a good one or a bad one, so much pressure, tell me what should i do. fuck it or work it? Of course work it but yea theres always a but. Maybe now i've no time to think of but, i need a instant solution and salvation! I hope i can have a better week so i think i better rest enough so i could hold on to those heavy and intense emotions when the disaster hits me, which i think likely it will come. Oh come on, i am dealing with sewing machines what is it not gonna happen? I am already sensing something bad....let alone facing it. pray for me dear brothers and sisters.


Blissful- totally blissful. I am having the whole house all by myself from now on means 1206am to the next 8am in the morning. With no noise, purely peace and with the voice of Racheal Yamagata without somebody asking me to tune the volume down. Great. I don't have to tolerate the voices of honkie speaking canto- momsy's favourite hk dramas that she can't live w/o and sister always stinking the bathroom after releasing her anal. I can drink all the packets of green tea in the fridge all by myself and channel 16 myself silly in front of the tv as long as i want without anybody interrupting me. Most importantly, nobody can rush me off when i bathe and mom can't creep into my room in the middle of the night to switch off my air con cause she wants to save the earth but the truth is to save bloody electrical bills. I really hate it! Now i can have a peaceful bath as long as i want and have a blissful night. Perfectttt.


As for now i am happy with a book of Sophie Kinsella which never fails to tickle my laughing bone and my priceless privacy, wouldn't it be nice?

no time


my weekend was splendid!
good food + tobacco loving + good company= absolutely orgasmic!
max brenner couldn't make us stop smiling and the bloody korean bbq's taste is still lingering in my mouth oh damn!

>>>>>>>>


i've absolutely no time for grieving


cause......






i've laid my fingers on Sophie Kinsella! I thought i've gotten the shopaholic series but no is the undomestic goddess! i know is such a irony to read that cause i am zee domestic goddess! alas... no harm finding instant entertainment yes?


tmr start of a brand new block and i am totally dreading it cause i have to face the bloody morning crowd! No, chin up bess everything is gonna be beautiful... embrace your new block with a positive mind. And is bed time now so good night buds!

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My obsession with letterbox has gone wild. I am diggin' them. Taken from the streets from novena to old school.

where do i start?


I've sooo many many many pictures to post up, but i have no idea where to start.
maybe this is a goood start yea? LOL




don't she look absolutely adorable like a unicorn on power rider? i love you muchos humbao! hahaha she never fails to crack me up. I FUCKING LOVE YOU! MUUUAAAHHHHHH


I WANT TO LOSE SOME FRIGGIN' WEIGHT
i gonna live on veggies and water
i won't die friends don't freak out
i want to be as light as i can float weeeeeeeeee
DON'T FREAK OUT FRIENDS


beckon to work! f***

ay ya ya ya ya


Get out of my head
Outta my, outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head
Get outta my head
Outta my outta my head
Want you outta my head
Outta my, outta my head


this song is insane but i like it like that.
you rock lad yo ashlee! HELL YEAH!


Ay ya ya ya ya
You're talking way too much
You tell me one more time how I should live
I swear I'll bite your head off
I am who I am And I can't be no one else
You got nothing left to say
Keep your comments to yourself
Awww!

3rd June


I've just ended my really short term break. that felt so long.
nah not just long, long and really meaningful.


Can't believe that i just lost 2 of my utmost important friends this month.
they left me-
not forever but just meantime
" Is better no leave than to be left behind."


This morning, i was just standing outside the glass doors of the departure area waving goodbyes to my dearest best friend. Seeing her pulling her luggage and glamorously walk down the path to her flight. And when the moment i stopped seeing her i know i gonna be left alone. I even looked back, and i don't see any more familiar faces. Everything felt so real like a big part of me wanting to pull her back. What pain me most is when the 2 love birds had their last kiss goodbye. It killed me utterly. It is worst than any Korean sappy dramas.


Our last hug never felt so tight and warm. I could sense that she wants to stay badly but she had to go. I want her to stay even more badly and so does everybody else. The tears i see in everybody faces pierce me through so deeply. And brett holding back his tears but still could see the redness in his eyes from all the dried tears.


I know this is gonna be hard, nobody likes to be left behind. Maybe when we turned older, we have our own lives to lead. Leaving could be a biggest difficulty that we need to overcome. Cheer up buddies out there. And chin up bess.


My beloved friend,

I hope everything goes fine with you there. We were so alike, i know you will feel the same way as i do. And you know you can call me whenever you want and i am sure to be there for you anytime.
I will love you till the end of time and look forward to your return.

Yours truly
Bessie









A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes





Amanda, regardless, you will still be on my mind whenever it comes to crazy parties and girls night out. I hope you know this is what you really want to do and the girlies will be by your side at all cost. I will remember you like how you will remember me dear. One girl down and you know we will gonna miss you like crazy bees so please call us up often and don't fall sick so much cause our heart will ache. I miss you muchos
xoxo

GALLERY : {n} / plural


PRE-SALES ON NOW!

ladies and gentlemen they are all painstakingly sewed and designed by a group of humble and passionate TP ADM students. So please show us some love... your dedication will determine our success. friends you don't wanna see me collapse do you? (;


xoxo

Panic bessie

gawl today was one of my worst day since the start of school.
Everything i did or wanting to do are out of place and time.
I really had no idea why did i get myself into this miserable life of mine


First i was late for class followed by i didn't managed to finish my assignment last night cause i bloody slept where as others mug till early morning. I SLEPT! really feel like slapping myself next time if i ever feel like sleeping when i have submission the next day. Never mind, calm down, so i head off to finish what i have left. As Predicted to be a crazy day, right after i finished my work, me and stacy dashed to Arab street for fabrics. It has been 3 days consecutively that we didn't have a pleasant prober table meal, how pathetic!? Is that what we consider " a life of a retailer/ designer?"
no shit


Flew off from Arab street to school and continue proposing our ideas and merchandise and sew and draft. UNTIL darling Amanda reminded me about my submission at 5! goddamnit it was 5.40 already, after printing twas 6? submission box was gone, lecturer was gone, no body can help and i am devastated. The frown on my face was just not enough to vent my anger and expressed out my grief. Angry that i allow myself to forget such an important submission, Just worried and really worried


Having not to spend enough time with friends is really killing me. Friends out there i really miss ya all! Sometimes i can get so drifted away by school work till i forgot the importance of my friend's company. Oh well school's holiday is coming up soon i will give a serious thought to my making up time :p


Alright for now, just sew just sew...just sew...just sew....